Along with ministering to your husband and your kids – don’t forget to save some love for yourself. We all feel like we miss the mark sometimes but God views us differently!!!
Why did I do that again when I promised myself I wouldn’t?
How could I have done something so stupid?
I’m not smart enough to figure this situation out.
If we just had more money to move in the right circles.
We would invite people over if we had a nicer house.
When I look in the mirror I’m looking sooo old.
How can I talk at that event when I don’t have any higher education?
Does any of this self talk sound familiar? Some of these very same sentences have rolled around in my head a time or two.
Inadequacy is an interesting feeling. There have been times in my life when I was also pretty convinced that I was smart and talented. So how do you feel smart and inadequate at the same time? The answer is actually quite simple. You feel inadequate because you are smart enough to know that there are smarter people than you. So feeling inadequate itself is not a bad thing. But being unable to be at peace with the fact that there will always be people who are smarter and more talented, have a bigger house and make more money than you is a problem.
I wish I realized this, much earlier in my life. But it should still count just the same. I no longer believe that I am particularly bright nor that I am seriously inadequate. I am just OK. That’s really not bad at all. I think that actually, this is a great place to be – knowing that I am OK to be who I am.
How did this radical change take place, you may ask? It didn’t come in the form of a lightning bolt or a vision (not that those things are wrong.) But the change came to my heart in a sweet small voice when I began to truly understand God’s love for me. The transformation began to take place when I viewed my worth through God’s loving eyes. God has loved me even before I was born.
“Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb……………….You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. (MSG- Psalm 136: 13 & 16.)”
Verse 16 in the KJV puts it like this – “Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect.”
God knew I wasn’t going to be perfect and loved my anyhow !!!!!!! He knew that there were days when I didn’t get the dishes done or the floors swept. When my thoughts were jumbled and unclear, He was there. The wrinkles and gray hair didn’t surprise Him or make Him love me any less. He used my feeling of weakness because He was strong.
“And God also selected (deliberately chose) what in the world is lowborn and insignificant and branded and treated with contempt, even the things that are nothing, that He might depose and bring to nothing the things that are…I Corinthians 1:28″
God’s love stretches as far as my mistakes, inadequacies, short comings and, yes, sins. He knows me – Psalm 103:14 says
” For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust.”
He knows that if I even look at pie I gain 5 pounds. My getting uptight in hurried situations doesn’t surprise God. My fears and heartaches are an open book before Him. The burdens I carry are known by my loving God. Even my future is in His hands –
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11 NLT
I’ve never been big enough to “fix” my problems and quirks. Perfection has always run ahead of me and been out of reach. But that is OK. Because God loves me, just as I am – just as He made me. He has a plan for me of hope.
Because God’s love is shining on me and warms my soul I can say with confidence, today and everyday –
I’m inadequate and it’s OK – because I am loved by God!!